Today is one of those days that has been bad. We've all had them-you know, the sense of dread when you wake up and sitting at the breakfast table wishing you all could go back to bed and start over. Well...things went from bad to worse. Things I am thankful for today-my father's determination that I learn how to use tools. I was able to turn the lock around on my son's door all by myself. Sad that I am excited about this but-yep I am. My mother for passing around her stubbornness. If any of these kids think they can out-stubborn me, they have not spent much time with my mother. She passed on the stubbornness of an ox (I mean that in the most sweet way possible mom!). My husband-that he can come home & see the house destroyed from an afternoon of 4 year old outrage & just give me a hug. I am thankful that I got a good workout-restraining a very angry child is a full body workout. I won't need to do any cardio for awhile (oh, who am I kidding, I can't even remember the last cardio workout I've done!). Most of all-I am thankful for all of you who read this blog & pray for our whole family.
This is hard-harder than I ever thought possible. The most frustrating part is yet to come-when the child that screamed at the top of his lungs that he hated me and wanted to run away, tried to bite me, head butt me, kick me, scratch me, cuss me out, etc. will then in a very dysfunctional way "need me". Gotta love this process. I should be getting used to it already. As little Orphan Annie says "the sun will come out tomorrow"!
This is why mothers in the 60s took a lot of Valium.
ReplyDeleteDon't we do the same thing with God, sometimes? Scream, yell, cuss, kick...then ask him to bless us. Hmmm.
Sign me up for the valium NOW!! There are more days than not that I think someone in this house needs to be medicated-HEAVILY! Yes, I agree completely with the comment about God. I think that very frequently when I get angry about kids making the same mistakes over and over. Then I realize that God probably wants to smack me upside the head for making the same mistakes over and over and OVER again!
ReplyDeleteLet me just tell you that one day- you will write a book about your experience. Kelly- the process that you're going through is so inspiring. Your honesty is so refreshing and it makes me want to be with you! Hang in there!
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