Put a Fork in Me, I'm DONE!

Oh my goodness! Please, Please, Please pray for me right NOW! Today I am struggling. It is absolutely, positively ridiculous that I had such a frustrating day. I was with my children probably a total of 5 hours today (compared to the usual ALL day thing) & it was a no good, very bad, terrible, rotten day.

For every minute of that 5 hours someone was crying, whining, or yelling. I have no clue why but I have no patience. As I type this I can hear Isaac on the monitor yelling at the top of his lungs. Why, you ask? Well...at bedtime we said prayers & I kissed him on the nose (which is what I usually do). He laughed at the time. Then, when I bent down to pray with Brian all heck broke loose. Isaac decided that he was torked off that I kissed him & has now been crying for 20 minutes about it. I even (in a moment of desperation) asked him what exactly crying about being kissed was going to do. Was it going to negate the kiss? He agreed, through sobs, that it would not take away the kiss but,doggone it, we Frengs do everything we can to the best of our ability. 110%, every time. Some call us overachievers, Some call us passionate, Right now it feels a lot crazy and a lot zealous!

I lost it with Brian earlier tonight & behaved in a manner not very fitting of any mother but defintely not a foster mother. I asked him to forgive me for my impatience but the damage has been done. He has seen too much in his past to let this one slide. Ugh....this is hard.

Please pray for us. We signed all the papers to file the petition to adopt Brian & Jasmine. Paperwork, paperwork, glorious paperwork. It feels like buying a car or a house, or something. Whenever I feel depressed about my life-I just have to be thankful that I am not a county worker. Ugh-could you imagine getting up everyday to be grumpy and rude to people? Oh wait-I do that. Amazingly-they didn't ask us if we wanted an extended warranty plan or GAP coverage. Our court date for Shamie is April 6th. The end is in sight! I will miss my conversations with county workers. I'm always able to slip in some good sarcasm and they don't even notice it.

Will keep you all posted on the adoption process. So close-yet so far away!